🔗 Share this article Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting. The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder. Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts for several hours. About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods. What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain. Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home. Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center. Still, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet. Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads. Historical healing records suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies. It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”. Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder note this. In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered. In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints. Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies. Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased. Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people. But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals. The national guidelines need revising to reflect a